Familienschreck4ever

Hey :) Lately I haven´t been on deviantart at all, I know. If anyone should read this, I am very sorry for being absent for so long. But many things have changed during this period: First of all, I still have no study place for medicine, but I am getting closer ( at one university I was ranked at 680 and the last one taken was 240...). Furthermore, my parents bought another house- actually for me and my grandma. I have been working on it for a few weeks now and my arms and back are aching. Yet it is little house surrounded by forest and hills- I love it.> And finally: I will be able to keep working as a paramedic- Soon I´l

For they next two weeks I will be writing my three written exams - my final exams. I have to write a three tests, one in English, one in Biology and one in my art classes- those three are my advanced classes. In two months I have to pass two oral tests- never have been tested this way before, so I am even more scared of them, though they are less stuff to study. I´ll be hopefully done by April and afterwards I still do not know what to do... I once wanted to become a doctor, but I am way too shaky to operate on somebody, I slowly develope a phobia against blood and I would not survive studying medicine- I am not dumb, but lazy. I th

Before everything else, I have to state that I had an artistic crisis- I didn´ have a single ideo, no inspiration at all and above all I still have no clue, what to do in my future with myself. On the 15th, 17th and 20th January I´ll write my three final exams in BK ( if you translate it, it would probably be like educationals art classes ), English and Biology. These are my three advanced classes and afterwards I still got two more exams, which are made up like oral exams... still don´t know which to subjects I´ll choose. Biology really scares me, though the other two aren´t that much to learn... but still I am so freakin´ nervous, I can´